They were sticking out of the gums like gravemarkers, and then the teeth began to fall out of her mouth, and I realized I had nothing to say to her, now or ever. I looked away, toward the water, which was almost as filthy as her, and contained nearly as many bodies. I couldn't go on like this. I wanted off the bridge and out of her company desparately. However, considering the sun beating down on me, and my poor choice of attire, I relented to her overbearing presence.
It isn't very nice to make fun of friends, just because you feel rejected, and yet reject others on their account.
It is a questionable habit indeed to abandon others every time some new fellow comes along. Especially questionable when you apologize, only to do it again and again. Feeling remorse gets you nowhere when you do not possess the will to break the habit.
And as we strolled along, she began spewing her regular shower of complaints of the day, as if I had asked for the menu. What is the special, I wonder? Once we were in the vehicle, the window was rolled down immediately, and I leaned my head to the right as far possible for several reasons. It felt like an oven and I closed my eyes, trying to hear as little as possible. It takes more effort than some might imagine. I thought about the new stripes I had created on my upper right leg. They hurt sometimes, and my clothing felt much too tight for the occasion. I thought about all the things I ought to be doing at that moment. I nodded or replied whenever necessary, and she'd never know the difference, because I could be as fake as anyone else, at that point at least.
I arrived home just to leave for the hospital shortly after. The sickest one in the room was the happiest, and had not the slightest idea of what the future had in store for him. We did not know much more than he did, and that was the problem. We conversed about awkward family situations, and hypocrisy. I'm just as embarassed by the lot of them as she is, she just has her eye on the wrong ones. He just smiled his gummy little smile. We watched them load someone into the helicopter, but I was the only one to see them take off, the only one patient enough to keep watching. We left soon after, letting the big mouth nurse know that the little man was by himself, on our way out.
I want to sleep now. I told him that.
Drink milk, he said.
It works for me, he said.
I told him I did. He didn't respond.
I still can't sleep but I'm going to try.
- Mood:
Isolated - Listening to: ions being born
- Reading: Interview with the Vampire
- Eating: should I?
LOL.I love your honesty, me too.
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"This is a terrible world! Why am I here?!"
"For tea parties!!!"
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Bob Carlos Clarke said of his wife Lindsey once "It takes a strong woman to be with a man that is obsessed with photographing the woman at the next table...."
Darklight Photography [link] Dance [link]
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"This is a terrible world! Why am I here?!"
"For tea parties!!!"
Don't mind me I'm just passing through to see how people are!
Also to basically to say I've returned back to DA and will be doing the '75 drawings challenge' if anyone else wanted to join me?
Anyways hows you?
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Imogen xoxox
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"This is a terrible world! Why am I here?!"
"For tea parties!!!"
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Imogen xoxox
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